I have been trying so hard not to plan, I mean really really reeeealllllly hard.
Not planning, or not having some sort of plan is absolutely, positively not my natural state. I do like to think that even in a whirl of planning, I am not that bothered if it doesn’t come off. However, I like the decision making process, the notion that I can shape what happens.
So the theory was to try and not have quite so much control, just in case life had some sort of mystery there that I was leaping over. Or something like that!
Well, my reflection is this. It is okay to make decisions, to chose something – because not doing so means you never go anywhere! You are not more or less spontaneous, you don’t discover adventure at every turn. You pretty much get paralysed, worried that if you choose something, you might miss the big thing! And then there is the confounder – I like to know what my choices are and then I life to choose!
So in fact planning not to plan is harder than not planning. 
It is now March and I am going to revert back to my natural state…..
